I am a problematic person

Sorry but I just can't stop thinking, in a wrong direction, maybe.

Firstly, have to say that I finally understand that I am wrong.

Thanks so much for your words, Xinhui and Nick. Really think that I learned a lot from the words, although they may sound, errr, spiky.

Have been thinking still, and don't know whether is in good progression. I may have gone to another big mistake, I don't know. Somehow I just don't have the "correct" logic mindset to proof myself wrong. I am not defending myself. I just want to say, I thought of something, people think that is definitely wrong, but I just don't think I am wrong. I still need to learn. I am learning.

Maybe the best way to stop mistake is to stop thinking. But any response will soon make me think more, and more thing will pop out, which can be right and wrong.

I know I have been so stubborn on thinking in a wrong way, and have made people angry and pissed by it. For me, it is like I thought of something, then I throw out, and then people point at the places that I am wrong, and then I explain why I think so, and people point again. I don't think this method is wrong, please correct me if I am wrong.

Maybe that's what blog meant to be. To state opinions. And I am always full of thoughts.

I beg for your patience when I come out with something that you totally cannot bear. I am learning by giving my ideas. And yes I know I am stubborn in changing idea, because what people think logically correct, doesn't seem so to me. I can just say, I will try hard to learn how to.

Sorry for the people who are bothered by me. Thanks for you patience.

Another small thought: Am I really the only one who has this kind of "false logic system"? Why I feel like everyone cannot accept it? Do I need to go see mental doctor?

An example of my "false logic system":
Like in the previous post, I mentioned that I don't appreciate birthdays. I just can't see the point of birthday. Celebrate that you have passed through how many years of life? I see it merely as an encouragement for you to continue your life, because you know if you stay alive for a year, the next year you can celebrate your birthday again! If there are birthday celebration, the ones that should be given present are the mothers, not the children, because they are the ones who actually suffer since the day the children are given birth. Mothers give birth, and have to happily celebrate the children's birthday, give the children birthday presents. I just cannot accept it. I just don't appreciate birthday.

See the different between the others? I don't know why my brain just doesn't think in the way that people think, even when I know it is totally wrong. And no need to correct me, I know I am totally wrong on the previous paragraph. But some times I do make correct logic as people. And that's why, I am often so confused. Even more often, I thought of something, and people say that is definitely wrong, I just refuse to believe so, until they slap on my face and I finally take it.

Sorry for being your friend. I think I will just spoil your mood. So sorry.