post concert thoughts

Things are just going beyond my expectation.

Firstly, when hearing the unofficial recording of Planet Earth, I was putting quite some expectation on my long solo. When the first note came in, I felt like killing myself. I thought I played quite well, but the tone totally disgusted me. Other than tone, the phrase sounded OK to me.

Then, when the official recording finally appeared, I was feeling quite OK with my tone. This time, I was seriously pissed by my phrasing. Something like, "Wth, this kind of shit came from me?!!"

When I told all that I played quite well, my friends and family looked at me and said, "Errm, you played quite well." Quote from my brother, "Wei, why English horn sound like 大便?"

When I changed my nick to "My solo like shit in the recording", everyone starts telling me, "Hey you played well leh..."

No, I was just deeply dissatisfied by myself.

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I was so impressed when it showed that everyone was feeling so together. Even if I had assignment due next Monday, it's still difficult for me to not visit my fellow bandmates' blog to read their thoughts.

I have been so emotional ever since Planet Earth. Every line of the bandmates' will make me to the urge of crying.

The official recording is played again and again, and never can I get bored.

Somehow I feel that Mr. Tan is like magician. "The heart and soul of the band", the quote from our star player Qicai. Without him, we are nothing, I will still be struggling with my flute. Truly, without his courage, I will not be able to sit on the most "important" seat, playing the "most important" English horn (Khee Nguen said, "ceh, if we don't have English horn, just ask someone to play Soprano Sax lo"). I still remember his expression when he asked us (oboes) to stand up, and I was the last.

Maddy asked whether I will be still practising. My answer of course is a big YES. However, all my reeds are gone. The concert reed finally cracked to the worst extend, and the other one so old that cannot vibrate properly. I need money to buy new reeds!

And no worry, I will not give out the seat of the "Principle English horn". Never!