oboe learning is full of obstacles

I said something about flute and oboe. Now I realise that my words are quite offensive. Actually I didn't mean to say anything bad, maybe my mood affected my words.

I have to say that I was not in a good mood. Firstly, my oboe learning journey was full of obstacles and problems. Losing reeds, discouragement from others, no instrument, all changed my mind toward pessimism.

You know, when you have a dream, and you have a tough way in front to achieve it, you will start to find some mental thing to encourage yourself. I think it is something about self-esteem, that you have to build up your mental strength even before you start pursuit a dream.

It's rather tough for me to continue the thing. I went to CFA everyday to practice, and some gave me a rather "not confident" look. Others think that I am not loyal enough to stay in flute. Of course there are some who gave me support, and I really appreciate that.

And I have my studies. Being a second year ME is not an easy job, given so many labs and compact classes schedule. I already sense some danger if I keep my schedule like this.

But I really don't want, and will not stop learning oboe. Not until my reeds spoilt totally or someone forbid me to use the CFA oboe. Be it tough, but that is my dream, my only dream for now.

I am considering to buy a new oboe, as my mother gave me full support. But oboe is not cheap. Yes, not CHEAP.

It is tough.