Music

Is it wrong to not concentrate on only one instrument?

I never had proper learning of any instrument since I started learning music, not even flute. I did have a teacher when I was learning flute, but he is a clarinettist, so I was not really taught about flute, but rather about music.

As I can see, everyone just seems to be very proud of the instrument they are playing. The only person I know who can change instrument, is Zi-xian, but he is still more focus on flute. I was thinking, when everyone started learning their instruments, were they been told that changing instruments are forbidden?

It is what I can see that make me feel bad, really bad. Every time I try to play a new instrument, there will be someone who acts really negative about my behaviour. Maybe they think that I am not loyal, or maybe not respect the instrument enough, or maybe even think that I am just playing for fun.

I can remember, the first instrument that I play, other than flute, is tuba, thanks to Daniel. My very first thought before I wanted to switch was because I can't feel tuba every time when I was playing in the band. So I just felt that I want to play tuba, to feel the instrument. Since then, I suddenly got feeling that flute is not really the best instrument, which many flute players I know always think. In fact, I started to feel that every instruments are equally nice.

But every music player I know just think that the instruments they are playing are the best. Maybe they are building their confidence on their own instruments, but it can't convince me at all. Flute players think that flute is the best, clarinet players like clarinet the most, even tuba players feel that they are the most important instruments. OK, no insult, if you think that it's not true, convince me.

I was like that also, when I start learning flute, thinking that no instrument can beat flute. But at that time my section mates were acting very arrogantly, that really made me felt disgust. As I grow older, I found that flute players are all very proud, the different is just a matter of show it or not. And I think all players are like that. OK, building confidence and love in your own instrument, I accept that.

But I am not like that. I am not proud of flute, or any instrument I would play. I just feel that every instruments stand on a same level. And I will treat all band mates equally, not weighing more on my section mates. But from what I can see, people are always more bias to section mates than to people from other section. I don't like the feeling, just don't like.

And I can't accept the concept of just playing your own instrument, cannot touch others. I can accept it if you say it is not good for your own instrument, but I won't follow. But if you say, I can't play other instrument because I choose to play flute, I will just ignore. But even if I ignore, I will feel really bad.

I have to say that I has no passion on flute. Not at all. What I have, is passion on music, so playing any instrument will make me happy, not only flute or oboe. If I have to have passion on one instrument to make good sound, I would rather I can't.

What I always can hear when I play other instruments is, "yerr, he plays other instrument again.." in a disgusted way. I can't understand why playing other instruments will cause disgust to others, maybe because sharing instruments? Or maybe, their pride on the instrument just doesn't allow other people to touch their instrument?

But I am weak. Every time I received a negative statement, I will just feel that, maybe I should stop learning music. Yes, music, not that particular instrument. Because, they are indirectly saying that my passion toward music is wrong.

And what's wrong with passion on every instruments?